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Saturday, June 30, 2007

wa.. tire.. morning got wake up by my bro.. so early mann.. sleep at 12 wake up at 5plus.. he wanna go cycle.. den wake me up to prepare him.. dotts.. den i can went into sleep liao..zzz.. den i listen to radio.. heard some nice song but dunno the lyrics.. than around 10plus go play ball will bud and my sibilings... haha.. dunno where is the place.. jus blindly follow.. the sun was big at around 1plus.. zzz trying to tann myself.. but nothing much happen to my skin.. zzz.. but pq got sun burn sia.. so xian mu.. haha.. than we go JE take our lunch.. and we go home.. pq when to find my son.. yeepee.. AYUMI HAMASAKI new album coming out.. gonna buy.. haha.. tonight got "the return of condor hero"again.. is nice.. wanna watch.. but at the same time got harry potter sia.. sian half.. tomorrow is my first tution day.. this term gonna work hard le.. as i dun wan to retain.. must jia you... haha..

personal feeling.. just now on the bus.. the bus uncle is blow kuo shao.. at first i felt very irritating.. but after that i felt a bit of sadness.. dunno why.. thing too much ba.. haha.. i really miss you alot.. only can look at your picture to cut down my pain.. haiz..

问世间情是何物直教人生死相许

天南地北双飞客老翅几回寒暑.. haiz.. haiz..

Nokosareta tooi mukashi no

Kizuato ga uzukidashite mata

Furueteru kokoro kakushite

Hohoemi ni suri kaeta

Ikutsu ni natte mo aikawarazu na watashi wa

Ima demo okubyou de

Tsuyogaru koto bakari oboete yuku

Tsutaetai omoi wa afureru no ni

Nee umaku kotoba ni naranai

Anata ni deatte inakereba konna

Modokashii itami sae mo shiranakatta ne

Sukoshi zutsu mitome hajimeta

Iyasarenu kako no sonzai to

Kobamenai mirai ni ikura

Obiete mo shikata ga nai to

Catching the falling leaves ...[Saturday, June 30, 2007]

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Friday, June 29, 2007

today girls got match.. well done.. even we lose.. really not bad.. jia you again k.. haha.. today quite buay song.. bud know.. haha.. don't say angry things le.. haha.. girls you all got to work harder.. wish you all can have better skill next year and do better.. just treat this west zone as a learning lesson.. you all still got 3 years more to go.. still can improve.. jia you k.. give you all, all my moral support.. you all give me a little xi wang.. i will give my very best to take care of you all.. jia you.. two more match to go!!!.. KAMBATEH!!!.. all the best.. hee..

personal feeling.. still can't get you out of mind.. i really want to see you mann.. just once i will be happy enough.. yesterday i really mistaken someone as you mann.. haiz.. maybe too long did not saw you le.. kinda miss.. haiz.. wish you can come back someday... hmmm...

Daijoubu da tte iikikasete

Tokui no egao ni kirikaeru

Nageyari da tte iu n ja naku te

Hirakinaotta tte iu kankaku

Furueru te o kakushita no wa

Doujou ga samu sugiru kara

Chuutohanpa de misekake dake no

Nukumori nanka ja atatamara nai

Sore nara isso minai furi shite

Atokata mo naku kudakechiru made

Imasara kireigoto da nante

Kiku tsumori mo iu tsumori mo nai

Itami wa fueru ippou darou

Nara ba uketomete iku made sa

Catching the falling leaves ...[Friday, June 29, 2007]

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Thursday, June 28, 2007

today.. quite sian.. hate the stupid and irritating 1310.. she is so damn the sux mann.. only know how to suan people.. she her self very good meh.. shake my ass off mann.. stupid idiot.. the only person who will pollute my world.. zzz... she think she is so great mann.. wth.. she think she got the knowledge of everything.. her best item is 'blow cow'.. you know what is 'blow cow'.. explanation time: 'blow cow' means.. cow is very heavy.. if a person could do it just by a blow.. omg that is impossible la.. so is very obvious that the person is boasting.. but actually he or she cannot do it..zzz..

omg.. wish really this will be my first and last time to meet this kind of buay bah people.. she is so damn the buay bah la.. worst of the worst!!!.. bleah.. no medicine can cure.. in chinese.. jiang shan yi gai, ben xing nan yi.. explanational time: no matter how you change.. your bad habit still will be there..zzz..

but that person mouth say she got change.. please la blind people also can see that you don't any progress la.. dotts.. OH! or maybe i really hate you too much.. so i say you until so jia lat.. but this is the fact too bad.. maybe i really hate you.. so i can see your ' true colours'.. explanation time: go ask miss solartri to sing to you.. haha..

personal feeling... omg.. today mood is still ok.. but during recess.. when i saw that girl.. omg.. i simply sick mann.. she really sux to the core.. spoil my whole mood of the day.. is obvious.. when i saw YOU.. my face will automatic de change until very very black.. worst den bao gong.. as you simply sux.. can say you very li hai.. you are the 1st person i hate for so long.. and is those very very very very very very tao yan you de that type.. you pro really pro huh! dotts.. go die la.. wish you could disappear in front of me.. hahaha.. got a sudden emo just now.. bleah.. got illusion of you.. haiz.. bleah.. think too much...

tsurai toki dare ga soba ni ite kurete

dare no kata de namida o nagashita?

yorokobi wa dare to wakeatte

dare to te o toriatte kita?

omoidashite iru yo

Catching the falling leaves ...[Thursday, June 28, 2007]

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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

today got training.. kinda sux mann.. during training.. the word "bitch" is flying here and there.. hahaha.. funny sia.. sometime i really felt sux mann.. no one understand.. they will not understand those feeling when something you had put in lots of effort.. HAHAHA.. who will understand mann.. ya true.. is i put myself into it.. i willing to do all this for the girls.. now tell me.. tham wana close down us.. WTF is going on mann.. nan bei chi bye.. i waste my time for those stupid training.. and watching the girls doing their slacking training.. what can i do mann.. i'm neither a coach nor a teacher please.. what can i do.. i thing i had give in as much as i could liao can.. nan bei.. the stupid coach hack care the girls.. we try our best to teach them.. now tell us wanna close down.. ya.. my effort all gone.. ya.. so.. no one cares.. fine lor.. all thanks to myself.. being so dumb.. ya.. since no one care.. no cares about Basketball just end like that.. fine lor.. why i care so much.. what for i do so much.. fuck sia.. chi bye.. stupid coach.. do nothing.. end up talk crap in front of tham.. WTF you want.. helping the girls to all this i get nothing.. get scolding from you this fucking idiot coach.. since you so pro you do yourself la.. chi bye.. i tell you i'm enough of all this.. doing all this make me and bud worst nia.. i think i wanna wash my hands off liao.. closing liao right.. go ahead lor.. i don't want to waste any effort, time & MY MONEY!!!!!.. chi bye.. fuck you la.. ass hole.. stupid.. bo lan pa..idiot la.. life sux mann.. do nothig for the team.. still talk so much.. i am enough of all this mann.. go and die la.. waste all my effort.. pulling this team up.. end up no one knows.. and excuse me.. mei gong la.. at least got ku lao k.. nan bei chi bye..

personal feeling.. no personal feeling today la.. fuck up sia.. so irritated.. everyone will only think for themselves.. why they can't spare their thoughts for other people.. damn fuck mann.. chi bye sia.. everyone sux to the core.. especially..33 and 1310.. both of them sux to the core core CORE AR!!!.. fucking ass hole.. ARGH!!!!!!!

kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao

kinou yowakatta jibun to ashita kitto tsuyoi jibun to

anata nara dare ni misete'ru watashi nara dare ni misereba ii

Catching the falling leaves ...[Wednesday, June 27, 2007]

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Monday, June 25, 2007

zzz.. first day of school.. bad start.. did nt do physic.. sort of kana detention...stay back till 4.. dn say le.. today in bio lesson.. fell asleep when miss chu play the song 'k sara sara'.. in english lesson.. emo.. don't know why i got a sudden emo.. zzz.. the you again.. i really want to forget mann.. but don't why.. you are just so loveable.. what should i do mann.. emo.. sad.. T.T

personal feeling.. my day was quite sian.. ever since u left.. my world sux.. so empty.. just can't fill up by other things.. can feel that.. my heart is bleeding through a hole.. is so hollow mann.. bleed for so long le.. will die le mann..

Kimi o aishita hibi wa boku no saigo no kiseki

Daremo ga mina hitokoishiku naru kisetsu ga

Kotoshi mo mata atatakasa to tsumetasa o

Tsurete yatte kita

Osana sugita bokura ga mada nani mo shirazu

Waraiatte shigamitsuite aruite ita hi o

Omoidasu

Oshiyoseru konna itami ni

Donna iiwake o sureba ii

Catching the falling leaves ...[Monday, June 25, 2007]

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Sunday, June 24, 2007

yesterday got my hair cut.. it look quite funny.. kor kor say is like that, as i need to grow long.. hurhur..sian ar.. today chiong all my homework.. still have some undone.. zzz... kinda hack care.. still got to the proposal for th toilet thingy.. and i simply got no idea how to do.. k stop here..

personal feelings.. nowadays so down mann.. first is holidays going end.. next is the past one month.. last is this saturday.. don't know.. humans is so sick mann.. so many feelings.. Oh.. this make me sick mann.. but i really can't forget the past.. OMG.. so sick mann.. I CAN'T FORGET YOU AR!!!!!... so confuse mann.. emo.. emo ar!!

Itsuka kitto yurusaresu to shinji nagara

Jikan ga tada sugite ku no o matsu no wa

Oroka sugiru no kana

* Afureru omoi dakishimeru

Koborete shimawanai you ni

Shiroi yuki ni futari no te ga todoku sono hi made

Kimi o aishite ru no wa boku no saigo no yuuki

Catching the falling leaves ...[Sunday, June 24, 2007]

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Saturday, June 23, 2007

sian.. today go training.. quite sian mann.. and the coach like got menopause like that.. siao de la.. from morning scold scold till the end of training.. still pull those guys ear.. heard from ks tt.. he still beat them.. WTH la.. siao de la..but today i did show attitude to the girls.. so sorry about it.. but sorry again.. i cannot be too lack to you all le.. bare with it k.. we will be quite firm will you all.. bare wth it.. all this is just a ' show ' to the coach.. everything will move on smoothly de.. after all competition everything will back to normal.. but u all stil have to train hard k.. jia you.. and you must be independent.. we will not always be with you all de.. another apology to you all.. and jia you for west zone.. kembate ne!!!
next.. i s my own opinion for today training.. OMG the coach is really siao mann.. so damn de tu lan.. fuck mann.. he think what.. all players is his dogs ar.. you all did not see what he did to the guys.. ya.. we are not pro.. but so .. we still humans right.. your treatment to everyone is sux mann.. (everthough you still sux for other training..).. please la.. ya TSS de basketball is sux.. we had not made into 2nd rounds for years.. so.. i admit the girls are slack.. but the boys are not ar.. but your treatment to them is so damn the bad la.. maybe other days also.. i maybe not around.. but they are still humans k.. another thing is.. i had already do what i should do.. i'm just a player, still a learner, i'm not a coach thus, i did not gone through any coaches training.. so what i should do for the girls i had already did my best.. please.. everyone had their own limit.. you know my temper.. don't push me too hard.. when it reaches my limit.. you can take good care of the girls by yourself.. i say it.. i mean it..

personal feelings.. emo periods coming back.. things is difficult to predict.. you and i had our own future.. waiting? i'm not sure.. 1month gone.. will thing change in future??.. yes it will sure will.. but no one knows what will happen.. will we still meet each other in future.. no one will know..

sonna michi no tochuu genjitsu kara nigeta
arayuru itami kara mo nigeta
ima wa konna dakedo
itsuka risou doori no
jibun ni naru no dakara to

Catching the falling leaves ...[Saturday, June 23, 2007]

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Wednesday, June 20, 2007

TIRE!!! just came back from SC camp.. ya.. quite fun.. yup.. and i am the best camper for 07.. haha.. 1st time sia.. haha.. and my group is the best group too.. haha.. 1st time be ass leader got good start le.. haha.. my group name is hook-up.. haha.. we really hook everything up.. 1st time so high.. k le.. got time than post more.. gonna chio my homework.. DIE!!!

personal feeling.. everytime i listen to ayumi hamasaki's dearest.. i will start thinking of you again.. we had nt been seeing each other for about one months.. sometimes i still can see you in my dreams.. yesterday i got camp fire.. when the fire goes off.. don't know why i am staring at it.. all of the sudden you just came past my mind.. getting emo.. but is camp.. so i did nt really show out.. haiz.. how long would i need to forget you.. but i wish i will not forget you.. as you are so loveable..

Ah itsu ka eien no

nemuri ni tsuku hi made

dou ka sono egao ga

taema naku aru yo ni

Ah deatta ano koro wa

subete ga bukiyou de

toomawari shita kedo

tadori tsuita n da ne

Catching the falling leaves ...[Wednesday, June 20, 2007]

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Saturday, June 16, 2007

today.. go school.. est let us watch.. SPIDER LILIES.. omg.. is quite nice.. but i don't think that need to be rank at R21.. as there is no obseen parts.. everything are quite normal.. feeling quite high after watching.. but i got feeling or sadness.. when i recall the shows.. don't know why i felt sad.. and got emo again.. haiz.. i don't mind watching it again.. as i still don't get the theme of the show.. can say that.. i don't understand it at all.. yup.. haiz.. jus now go out wif mel, nath, kishon and that shawn.. we watch fantastic 4.. ya it is quite nice.. everything was quite fun.. actually is ok la.. yup.. den i go ah ma house..

personal feelings.. really.. nowadays getting emo again.. keep thinking of the past. i don't know mann.. the more i listen to ayu's music.. the more i miss u.. we had not been seeing each others for months.. ARGH!!!.. i don't know.. everything just happen too fast.. i wish that i could never say good-bye to you.. and always stay by your side.. but is too late.. you had left.. left to the far far away.. haiz...

Saigo ni kimi ga hohoende

Massugu ni sashidashita mono wa

Tada amarini kirei sugite

Koraekirezu namida afureta

i find difficulty in breathing..

ever seen you leave me..

Catching the falling leaves ...[Saturday, June 16, 2007]

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Thursday, June 14, 2007

hahahaha... just came back from e5 chalet.. bleah tire.. although i sleep the most among the other guys.. but too bad.. thats why i call xiao pang.. haha.. because i need to eat more, drink more and sleep more... haha.. the chalet ar.. ok la.. although abit sian.. abit only.. but still quite fun.. haha.. the funniest part is when shawn is drunk.. he though the plain water is voka.. so he drink two bottle down.. haha.. den the rest same lor.. most of the guys 'drunk'(meaning face red).. but shawn is the worst.. we girls all v steady de haha.. now very tire ar.. wanna sleepl.. hehehe...

k.. personal feeling time.. although these few days is quite busy.. but there is still times you did came into my mind.. don't know whether is a good feeling or what... is ablt sweet.. but hurts still occurs.. there was really time i really miss you.. however, i can't express out my feeling.. is very difficult explain.. i am the only person know that.. is quite a long time we did not saw each other.. you seldom come back.. our memories is a bit fade.. but everyday.. there are time you did came into my mind.. i'm not sure whether that is a miss or a memory.. but that feeling is difficult to express out.. time will let us grow out.. and memories will be faded too.. however.. the sweet and pain will still remain in heart.. i will try to let you go and give others a chance.. yup..

Ima mo koko de watashi wa kawarazu
Ibasho o zutto sagashite imasu
Douka douka anata ni dake wa
Kono omoi ga tsutawarimasu you ni
Hoshii mono nado hoka ni nai

Catching the falling leaves ...[Thursday, June 14, 2007]

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Sunday, June 10, 2007

bleah.. so tire now.. is 2.18 pm.. -.-!!.. got our last match today... which is so damn e early la.. 9 am mann.. last night go watch mid-night.. kinda not enough sleep.. yesterday reach home is about 1plus am.. bleah.. than i got to wake up early to go ajunied..-.-!! actually got up at 5am.. but seem still early.. so fall asleep again..-.-!! around 6plus got scolded by ah wei than i finally got up.. -.-!! i check the time.. OMG is 630+.. check my phone again.. hui mei call me 18 time.. Wow.. this is the most miss calls i ever had.. haha.. than i kinda chio here and there to search for my bottle, towel, socks, etc... and simply get the bread and eat.. than rush off to the MRT station.. bleah.. reach SBC at around 8 15am.. i reach there at the same time as hui mei and the other guys.. however.. our dear pq was late.. today there is only 6 people playing for the match.. -.-!!.. i was so damn the clumsy today.. ok.. is past so don't say le.. heehee.. sze lei was quite funny.. haha.. her friend shun man.. she is pro.. and tall.. ok is i too short.. -.-!! i sort of defend her.. but coach suddenly sub me in.. so i am kinda blur.. overall.. for this youth cup.. i don't i do well for the last 3 matches.. i only did well for the first one.. yup.. haiz.. jia you ba.. -.-!!..

today ar.. too tire le.. no time emo.. tomorrow ba.. i emo than got personal feelings.. hee..

Osana sugita bokura ga mada nani mo shirazu
Waraiatte shigamitsuite aruite ita hi o
Omoidasu

Catching the falling leaves ...[Sunday, June 10, 2007]

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Friday, June 08, 2007

My left knee hurts mann.. gt difficultly walking mann.. haiz.. i am so damn e lan mann.. today match.. did not have any commitment sia.. haiz.. sorry guys.. after competition.. go mac for lunch.. wif pq.. den take MRT to lakesite.. to mel's house to play tennis.. den pq alight at clementi.. meet hui chen.. dey go vivo.. and i was late for about half and hour.. same as kishon they all.. the guys play tennis, me and mel play badminton.. actually thats still quite tiring.. haha.. but quite fun.. after the activties.. we decide to go home.. but the guys suggest to stay at mel's house to discuss about the class chalet thingy.. and from 5 plus discuss till about 7 plus.. -.-!! den i went home.. hehehe...

k.. now is personal feeling time.. don't why.. nowadays keep thinking of you.. force mself to forget about you.. but i can't.. i don't know mann.. i will very auto de think of you.. after listening to some songs.. i also will think of you.. watch tv programme also.. OMG mann.. OH MY SKY... help!!!! SOS!!!

sonna michi no tochuu genjitsu kara nigeta

arayuru itami kara mo nigeta

ima wa konna dakedo

itsuka risou doori no

jibun ni naru no dakara to

Catching the falling leaves ...[Friday, June 08, 2007]

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Thursday, June 07, 2007

i just got a feeling.. just wanna to hold you tightly and don't wanna to let you go.. haiz.. but you still leave in the end.. haiz..

kyou mo mata kono machi no doko ka de

wakare no michi erabu futari

shizuka ni maku o oroshita

Catching the falling leaves ...[Thursday, June 07, 2007]

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OMG OMG OMG... i am gonna to rot at home mann.. what a holiday mann.. everyday is so sian.. go training and competition.. nothing better to do.. cob web growing mann.. cob web increasing.. zzzzZZZZ....-.-, -_-, =.=, =_=.... so sian mann... can i have something better to do... -.-!! BLEAH!!!.. never mind.. go youtube watch video..-.-.. my life sux mann.. nothing better to do..

now.. is time for me to express my feelings.. zzz.. i don't know what am i thingking.. don't know what i want.. i chat with somebady on phone.. she say that maybe i am too stress or something.. but now.. i only need to stress for studies & basketball.. but there still something i am stress of.. however.. i don't know how should i express out.. as i don;t really know the main reason.. so fustrated... BLEAH!!! sux mann.. argh!!!.. now.. seems like i got no interest in any song.. ever since i started to listen to ayumi hamasaki's song.. maybe her music is good. plus i like her lyric ba.. don't.. and who knows.. when i don't really know what ami thinking now... haha.. going siao again.. BLEAH!!!..

ikudo meguri meguri yuku
kagiri aru toki no naka ni
bokura wa ima ikite ite
soshite nani o mitsukeru darou

Catching the falling leaves ...[Thursday, June 07, 2007]

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Wednesday, June 06, 2007

BLEAH!!! today got match.. T.T.. did not play well for the team today.. haiz.. in the end we lose 46-45.. i think.. did nt have much commitment.. T.T.. useless mann.. haiz.. friday de opponent more strong mann.. T.T.. haiz.. tell myself jia you ba.. T.T..

evrything is so unpredictable.. haiz.. don't know why.. just feel like say this.. think going to emo again ba.. don't know.. just like to say this words.. thinking that i am trying to run away from reality.. but i will not run away.. i will face it.. as runnig away can't help anything.. humans.. humans again.. don't know.. reality is just so cruel.. haiz..

hontou ni taisetsu na mono igai
subete sutete shimaetara
ii no ni ne
genjitsu wa tada zankoku de

Catching the falling leaves ...[Wednesday, June 06, 2007]

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Tuesday, June 05, 2007

just don't wanna hurt u.. but.. i just don't know what to do.. let time & fate tell us ba.. we cannot get things fine, when there are force everywhere..

Catching the falling leaves ...[Tuesday, June 05, 2007]

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Tomorrow got match, so will not be so rot at home.. however thursday will rot like siao.. actually going mel's house to play tennis de.. but after knowing something.. so i decided don't go.. as, if i were there. i sure unhappy de.. mel know the reason.. yup.. another thing is.. i don't feel like going to class chalet sia.. think it will be quite sian.. i rather go the BBQ night.. but go 1day also $20.. 2 days also same amount.. dotts mann.. BORED!!!! sian sia.. T.T..

'MARIA' ai subeki hito ga itetoki ni tsuyoi kodoku o kanjida kedo ai subeki ano hito nikekkyoku nani mo ka mo mitasareru

'MARIA' ai subeki hito ga itetoki ni fukaku fukai kizu o oidakedo ai subeki ano hito nikekkyoku nani mo ka mo iyasarete'ru

Catching the falling leaves ...[Tuesday, June 05, 2007]

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Friday, June 01, 2007

erm.. i don't really know what to post mann.. i got alot of things wanna to say.. but i just don't how to express out... but i think is easy to find out when you go read the lyrics of Ayumi Hamasaki's song.. title is ' a song for xx".. as it is abit similar to what i feel.. it is terrible when you felt empty.. as you will find that you don't know what you want.. and that is terrible...this is what i feel for all this period of time.. it is quite miserable you know.. and when you know what you want.. but is so difficult to achieve or get it.. haiz.. don't know what should i do.. think this holidays will be miserable for me.. and this will be the worst holiday i ever had.. =_=!!

i'm siao of ayumi hamasaki!!!
she rocks!!!
hehehehe...

Catching the falling leaves ...[Friday, June 01, 2007]

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Xiao Pang, 17 (:
Turns a year older on every 18 January.
My real name is Chua Pei Qi Peggy.
People prefer to call me Xiao Pang.
Add me @ peg_5566@hotmail.com

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